i had this dream a little while ago about my friend josh. i don't remember all of what happened. i do remember he was flying a plane, though. for some reason, this provides an endless source of amusement for him. he'll bring it up every now and then and start laughing.

he sucks.

my dreams haven't been very coherent. i had one last night about a lot of things. i remember hugging someone. my head was against his chest, and i was listening to his heartbeat. he was petting my hair. i felt very safe. i think we were in a desert, but i'm not sure.

i want someone to hug like that. =(

i had a late night last night. i took a nap today and had the most awful dream about my friend brock. i'm not entirely sure why. i need to email him tomorrow. i'm too tired to do a good job of it tonight.

we were in some building that i've never been in before. it was huge. there was some sort of convention or something going on. people were walking all over the place. i saw my friend brock, and i ran up to say hi to him. he barely paid attention to me and pointed behind him. i realized that i'd mistaken his twin brother brent for him (they look very similar but not at all close enough alike to mistake them for each other). brock had cut all of his hair off. his eyes were rimmed with red. he'd been doing a lot of drugs. i was so upset by this. he was being mean to me, and generally rude to most people. finally, i told him he was hurting my feelings, and i could tell he felt bad.. but he liked the drugs too much. then i woke up.

it doesn't sound so bad, but it really was. i was so hurt and upset when i woke up. i still am. the thing is, brock is fine. i hate dreams that do that.

last night i had a bunch of strange dreams. someone was holding on to me. i know it was a man, and he had me in a bear hug from behind. he wouldn't let me go. i wasn't afraid of him, though. i think he was protecting me. i kept pointed and saying something, but i don't know what it was. then everything was blue, and i was looking for a different color. so wolfie told me that my crayons were missing, and he couldn't give me his because they were over there. i didn't need crayons because the clouds were rolling in and bringing the colors back. right.